Mother’s Day in Mexico is celebrated on May 10th each year. So on Wednesday May 10, 2017 my husband bought me roses and gave me a sweet card. This is my first Mother’s day without a plan to see my son. Jason loved dogs! His first dog’s name was Cosmo and his last main squeeze was a black Lab named Bella. Today I am sharing memories for all the friends who loved my son. Many yet weep without knowing Jay’s giant faith. This post is for Jay’s unsaved peeps who are curious about his last day on earth. Herein is a glimpse of heaven, thus imagined, it remains my PEACE. After a great day of golf at Swenson with his cousin, a sharp pain brought Jason to his knees and he crumbled on the cold garage floor where he was barbecuing with Dave. Now picture Jay’s spirit rising above the scene. Jay laughs and says “look down there, that is my body on the ground…WOW — I am floating up into a brilliant Light …I feel calm, warmly embraced, deeply comforted, genuinely treasured, softly nurtured, absolutely understood, dearly cherished, completely forgiven, totally honored, happily welcomed, instantly perfected, and unconditionally loved ALL at once!” —This is my picture of heaven. As a momma filled with love, I write this as a foreign correspondent to comfort all those people who loved my son, and to all those mother’s who lost a child. I can only imagine how my son felt when he entered into the holy Presence of God. Jay golfed and laughed heartily on his last day on earth. He was so excited that I was coming to visit for Mother’s day 2016…but God had other plans. Jay was a happy baby and a beloved friend to many. Just imagine that you were enjoying the day like you had not in a long while, and suddenly you had no more breath. God told us in His living word “To be absent from the body is to be present with the Lord” Now, just imagine, that without hesitation or any regret your sense of self dissolves as your soul is enveloped by the Light of the world, and you are aware of Jesus more than ever before. Imagine standing submerged in His Presence while knowing Jesus and experiencing God so powerfully that you fall to your knees in a state of genuine worship. Imagine all thoughts and feelings as a human melting into the brilliance of His glory. Imagine having all your questions answered without asking. Imagine experiencing God’s promises fulfilled as your soul is filled with unprecedented peace. Imagine feeling “at home” for the first time in your life while feeling “safe” and “free” to live eternally in the unequaled beauty and unmatched Love of God. How compassionate of my Father to lead me to the words to write about my son Jason’s experience as he took his last breath. Our heavenly Father loves us, He knows us and He provides all that we need to be comforted in this world. A song we sang at church today: “There’s a Peace I’ve come to know, though my heart and flesh may fail, there is an anchor for my soul and I can say “it is well”. Jesus has overcome and the grave is overwhelmed, the victory is won. He is risen from the dead. And I will rise when He calls my name, no more sorrows, no more pain. I will rise on eagles’ wings, before my God, fall on my knees, and rise, I will rise. There is a day that is drawing near, when this darkness breaks to light, and the shadows disappear…and my faith shall be my eyes, and I hear the voice of many angels sing, “worthy is the Lamb” And I will rise when He calls my name, no more sorrow, no more pain. I will rise on eagles’ wings, before my God, fall on my knees. And rise, I will rise.” Chris Tomlin lyrics “I will Rise” — In the book ‘Jesus is Calling’ on April 20, 2016 the day of Jason’s last breath it is written:”Do NOT be afraid, for I am with you. Hear Me saying Peace, be still to your inquiring and restless heart. No matter what happens, I will never leave you or forsake you. Let this assurance soak into your mind and heart, until you overflow with Joy. The media relentlessly proclaims bad news, but the Good News is that I came to give you eternal Life in Me. Let Scripture saturate your mind and heart, and you will walk steadily into your ultimate destination. “Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the Lord your God goes with you; He will never leave you or forsake you.” Deuteronomy 3:16 If my son Jason would only share the glory he now sees….I could, and would be able to report the truth as Jay relates it. “But our citizenship is in heaven. And we eagerly await a Savior from there, the Lord Jesus Christ…” Phil 3:20 Today April 20, 2017 marks the one year anniversary of when my son took up citizenship in heaven. For forty four years while you were on earth, I loved you and I love you still. Our last day together we swam with the big dogs, caught a sunset on the Delta, and went to Lodi, California to see the movie “The War Room” Your Mama misses you.