I WAS that shy girl who had low self-worth. I WAS the girl who felt like an outsider. I WAS the girl who was quiet, kind, envious, empty and depressed without knowing why. I WAS the girl who believed she had no chance of being accepted or loved.  I WAS the girl who compared herself to the popular girls at school, to the magazine models, and to those who came from loving families. 

1981 Diamond Bar, CA

1998 Quail Lakes Church

1999 Abundant Life Church

I WAS the girl who felt like an imposter.   I WAS the lonesome girl hoping to be included.  I WAS the girl looking for love in all the wrong places.  Is it any wonder then that I grew up to feel hopeless as a  lost soul? As a  rejected runt, I WAS certain nobody would want to ever marry me.  I hid how I really felt and I did not use the faith, the talent or the voice God had given me.  I WAS the girl who felt miserably inadequate. Desperate, I sought Truth with all my heart.  On June 19, 1985 during a local revival, feeling invisible in a crowd of a thousand, my body stood at attention. The preacher was on fire and without being conscious of what he was saying, my heart stood at attention – quite involuntarily I stood up and started speaking in a foreign language.  Jesus captured my soul, called me His daughter, adopted me and deposited the Holy Spirit into me. Suddenly my secret to be wanted became realized as His hand touched me with His unmistakable Seal. Filled with new life “in Christ” the church elders led me to a swimming pool in which I was immersed, and legally baptized in the name of the Father, Son and the Holy Spirit. I was  given my first Holy Bible and His Word lit up my soul.  ❤️ Love Himself took up residence in me and the living Word of God remains my refuge.  Exposed to the glory, grace and Power of God, the girl who had felt the sting of rejection was lit up as His Chosen.   The  Truth of who I am in Christ needed constant care and watering because the Liar had convinced that girl to question any kindness.  That girl’s soul was barren of compassion, mercy and Truth. Persistent as Truth is, He grounded me, led me to a woman of faith who issued endless compassion and mercy for all my questions. Baby formula was eventually replaced with the solid food of God’s holy Word.  The holy Scriptures began to pinpoint lies lodged deep within me. God’s love letter said I was wanted, adopted and filled with the imperishable!  My true, unshakable identity was to rest “in Him”.  As my Father’s continuous love poured into my heart, a burning hope filled the hole. Not by chance, but by His design, the Living Water flooded my being until all the dirty lies washed overboard!  My thirst was great and the Truth bathed my parched soul.  An amazing comprehension of the breadth, length, height and depth of Truth grew within me. A supernatural transformation began as I embraced a portion of God’s immense capacity to love a broken kid of the King.  I understood that I was not only that girl, but that now and forever, I was His girl!  “For it is by grace that you have been saved, through faith – and it is NOT from ourselves” Eph 2:8 —  AWE struck, I came to KNOW that I could not earn grace, but that it was a FREE GIFT from my Father! “But to each one of us grace has been given as Christ apportioned it.” Eph 4:7  Alas, it was clear that I could never be good enough, or terrible enough to stop His pursuit of me. Such grace cannot be earned, indeed it was a gift.  Christianity is not a set of rules to follow. Derek Prince said “A religion of works fosters pride.”. Religion is too often made up of legalist enforcers who deny God’s grace. Consider how you were treated by a parent or any organization that demanded perfection? If you dared be transparent about a struggle, were you treated with mercy and encouragement?  With loving kindness and compassion?  What did Jesus do with the woman who was caught in adultery?  “Ye without sin, cast the first stone” and all the critics, dropped their stones and walked away. Jesus gently lifted her up and told her that He is not her accuser, but her Advocate. “Go and do your best, and by My grace, do not sin again.” 

Like an easy rolling tide, the Holy Spirit gently washed away my fear of being unworthy and hopelessly inadequate.  He took off my mask and revealed what God saw in me. WOW, the truth is that the King of kings adopted me as His! He removed my sin as far as the East is from the West and said “Come follow Me”.  How wide is His loving, compassionate forgiveness?  North will eventually meet the South, but the East and West will never meet – therefore the width of my Father’s love is endless. ❤️ My life verse: “He who abides in me is greater than he who lives in the world.”

Passport 1988

July 4, 2018

July 2020

The length of His love is to the uttermost, unto eternity, which has no end.  I am His chosen girl, the one He persistently chased, the one who surrendered so that I may KNOW the love of Christ. As a woman of faith, I now pray in the powerful name of our Lord Jesus, that all readers ponder the Truth as the Holy Spirit works in each heart to increase the understanding of God’s love. That they receive and believe in the Truth as they seek Jesus with all their heart. AMEN ❤️  “to all who did receive Him, to those who believed in His name, He gave the right to become children of God.” Without reservation I broadcast this Truth, that the Lord may feed a broad and thirsty audience.  His word says “that you being rooted and grounded in love, may be able to comprehend with all the saints what is the breadth and length and depth to know the love of Christ.” Eph 3:17-19. What is true about a person does NOT change the Truth of who God is.  Momma Mia

October 3, 2019

Engaged Sep 19, 2017

Married to a retired pastor Nov 17, 2017

During my adult life, because of my rebellious spirit, and stupid choices, I experienced the dark side of life.  Through it all GOD was constantly there, wooing me back with His flow of unmatched, underserved mercy and grace.  While that girls earthly dad had given up on her,  my heavenly Father had His plan in place before I was even born!

 “Oh God, where can I go from Your Spirit?  Where can I flee from Your presence? If I go up to the heavens, You are there;  when I make my bed. You are there. For You created my inmost being; You knit me together in my mother’s womb. I praise You because I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Your eyes saw my unformed body;  all the days ordained for me were written in Your book  before one of them came to be.” Psalms 139 (CJB)  We find the TRUTH only in God’s Word.  The Holy Bible is our heavenly Father’s love letter to us! 

We cannot change ourselves

Barb age 67

Barb age 11

Our Father always had a plan in place to redeem us in a supernatural way. The hand of God has always been on me and the times that he has intervened to save my life have been many. At age 22 during an emergency hysterectomy I flatlined on the table. In 2006 I had a brain aneurysm which doctors said should have killed me.  In my late twenties I was kidnapped and abused. In September of 2020 my husband and I both were hospitalized with COVID and today we both have drawn closer to God as a result of a series of hospitalizations and disproved medical diagnosis. The miracle inducing power of FAITH and God’s Word are alive and active for those who believe in the Word of God. ! 

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While in the hospital in Nov 2021 for a heart attack, I praised God and took advantage of the opportunity to share my faith with nurses and doctors. Jesus is the Great Physician, and by His will, and for His purpose and glory I survived Covid and a heart attack.  HALLELUJAH, ALL GLORY TO OUR FATHER! Affirm the Good

Storms come and storms go and we take our positions as watchmen, looking up as we anticipate being “taken up” to meet Jesus in the clouds. Life is about what the Holy Spirit did in us, and through us as we welcome His Presence.  As we lay in ER, my husband and I were prepared to step into glory, or accept whatever His will was for us. Hallelujah ❤️  It is all about the testimony we speak and walk before others. We want to glorify our Father even when we are sick.   His Plans     “WAITING ON GOD is hard when we are young: I was able to share my testimony with girls at a local orphanage in Chapala. At age 16,17,18,19,20 we are often self-deceived that we are READY —- The most important thing in every life is the will of God.  Before a youth gets married, or buys a new car, house or selects a college, it is imperative that one asks God first: “Lord what is Thy will for me concerning the choices before me? What is my calling?”  My formal education ended in high school and my worst subject was English as diagramming sentences baffled me. However, by the grace of God, I am a duck swimming joyfully and easily when I write. Whomever is reading this, learn to NOT compare yourself to anyone.  God created you for a unique purpose!  Do what you love and do it unto the glory of God.  Be careful of what you allow to fill your mind and heart. Aim to honor God with simple truth. 2 Tim 1:9 “God has saved us and called us to a holy calling—not because of anything we have done but because of His own purpose and grace. This grace was given us in Christ Jesus before the beginning of time” All glory to God as my writing ministry has reached over 50 countries. AMEN

As a divorced mother for 38 years, my Father prepared me as I waited to be equally yoked with Michael. We got married in 2012 and more maturing was planned for both of us.  LIFE was HARD as a single woman, and LIFE will continue to have challenges as we wait for our Lord to return.” My testimony of child abuse, rejection by my parents, a kidnapping, a rape, homelessness, unemployment – all shared with these young girls who will at some point need to depart from the orphanage and trust in their heavenly Father for protection and provision.

Ephesians 1:7-14 “In Him we have redemption through His blood, the forgiveness of sins, in accordance with the riches of God’s grace that He lavished on us. With all wisdom and understanding, He made known to us the mystery of His will according to His good pleasure, which He purposed in Christ, to be put into effect when the times reach their fulfillment—to bring unity to all things in heaven and on earth under Christ.  In Him we were also chosen, having been predestined according to the plan of him who works out everything in conformity with the purpose of His will, in order that we, who were the first to put our hope in Christ, might be for the praise of His glory.

We were included in Christ when we heard the message of truth, the gospel of our salvation. When you believed, you were marked in Him with a seal, the promised Holy Spirit, who is a deposit guaranteeing our inheritance until the redemption of those who are God’s possession—to the praise of His glory.” AMEN