The past is behind us; and we wisely pause to remember and learn from it. Eternity is ahead of us; and we choose to prepare for the destiny of being in the Presence of God forever. The present is here; and we choose to live it fully, or we perish without a dream or vision of glory! April 20, 2021 marks the 5 year anniversary of my son’s entrance into eternity. The normal roller coaster of emotions stopped when I chose to get on His Peace train. There is a time for grief, and good reason to pause for memories. It is my healthy choice to rejoice in all the Lord has done! I choose to praise God in all things because His ways and timing is perfect. Our Lord keeps our tears in a jar as He grieves with us. To mourn Jason’s shortened days, is to remember his life, and honor him. Remembering our loved ones is a holy, healthy thing to do. “Those who sow in tears will reap with songs of joy” Psalm 126:5 — I am assured that my son is forever in the holy presence of Jesus, the Creator of all things, the One who opened His mouth and spoke the universe into being. The pain of never hugging my son on this earth, ever again…returns unexpectedly, even years after his shocking sudden death. Extreme emotions yet emerge when I hear the lyrics of songs that we sang together. On this 5th anniversary of Jay’s reunion with our Father, it is in Jason’s honor that I lodge some great memories. Music was always a part of our jointly shared joys in this life. Jason loved to groove to Motown tunes and he displayed his soul on the dance floor. He made me laugh until I snarkled! We took many country drives together, windows down with our playlists loudly blasting. Each year Jason made a point of being in contact, and on many Mother’s day and Father’s day adventures, we took long road trips together to camp, attend a circus, to enjoy a BBQ on the coast, or just go out to Pirates’ Lair off HWY 12. I can hear Jason say to me “no worries Momma, it’s all good!” Father’s day 2013 was the best Jason ever had. We rented a cabin at Tower Park in Lodi on the river and Jason was the Captain of the boat that day! His dog Bella was our mascot and his aunt Sue and cousin David joined us for that glorious weekend. Jason underlined this scripture in his Bible which I treasure. “My heart leaps for joy and I will give thanks to Him in song.” Psalm 28:7 – God asked “To whom will you compare me? Or who is my equal?” says the Holy One.” Isaiah 40:25 “He brought His people out with JOY, His chosen ones with singing.” Psalm 105:43 ESV – Jesus loved to worship at his church “Lifesong” in Stockton, California! When Jason was thirteen I took him to his first concert. It was to hear Kenny Loggins at the AG Spanos Center and the most recent was an outdoor performance, in the rain, with Katie and Diana in the Bay area. Another
vivid memory includes busting a gut laughing while Snipe fishing at Lake Alpine shortly before Jay’s dad died. My son never lost his child-like wonder or the absolute joy of welcoming a new job, or a new friend into his life’s shortened experience. At Jay’s memorial, several of his friends stood up to share memories. At the luncheon afterwards one tall man came to tell me that Jason was the glue, the guy who brought two rivalry schools together. Tom Simmons shared that in the last few months of his life, Jason’s thirst for the Word of God grew. He shared Jason’s joy in reading the psalms each morning. As his mother I am comforted in knowing — with full assurance that Jason accepted “God’s way is right for me.” There was a lifelong spiritual battle going on for Jason’s soul and I Praise God that in the end, our Lord got the victory and won! “Precious in the sight of the Lord is the death of His faithful ones.” Psalm 116:15 – No matter how short or long of a time it takes, grief is important to share. Raw and unfiltered feelings need to come out. If I pushed my feelings down, they would suffocate my soul and I would be subject to lengthy bouts of depression. Without my faith in Jesus I would be inconsolable. I believe my Lord gave me strength to write about grief, and He reminded me that it is holy to remember. Ecclesiastes describes all kinds of seasons and there is a time for tears, and a time for laughter. “In his heart a man plans his course, but the Lord determines his steps.” Proverbs 16:9 – Jason was at peace in his sweet soul before Jesus escorted him home. “But our citizenship is in heaven. And we eagerly await a Savior from there, the Lord Jesus Christ.” Philippians 3:20 Jason Corey Newell, Yo Momma, Barbara Sue loves you and today I am loving the memories of our last date in Stockton for mother’s day August 2015 – It was 108 degrees, we had no air conditioning and you wore that wet rag around your neck, smiling, never complaining! You picked me up from the airport in Sacramento, we stayed at the Best Western in Galt and then we took a drive along the river and had lunch at Al Da Waps in the old town of Locke. You wanted to take me to Micke Grove Zoo, and it was so hot that even the animals hid in the shade and we laughed! It was like God impressed upon you to make more memories with yo Momma. More Scriptures underlined by Jason in his bible: “Through whom we have gained access by faith into this grace in which we now stand. And we rejoice in the HOPE of the glory of God.” I praise God for every heart that attended his homecoming service at Horizon church in Stockton. Jason saw his daughter Marissa and his huge collection of friends and family remembering him well. Revelation opens the scriptures. Heb 12:1 “I am surrounded by a great cloud of witnesses'”
Not only so, but we also rejoice in our sufferings because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. “You will be hated by everyone because of Me, but the one who stands firm to the end will be saved.” Be not distracted or dismayed, just enjoy Rebounding
Worship the Lord with all your heart and leave no room for the Liar to deceive you.
As we all journey with God, the only thing He intends to be clear about repeatedly is the way He deals with our soul. The sorrows and difficulties in the lives of others will absolutely confuse most people. We may think we understand another person’s struggle until God reveals the similar attitudes, judgments, sins or shortcomings in our lives. There are vast areas of stubbornness and ignorance the Holy Spirit will reveal in each of us, but it can only be done when we choose to get alone with Jesus. We are wise to NOT be more concerned with what others are doing or saying. If we are filled with concern of our own physical appearance we often neglect the spiritual condition of our own unrepentant heart. Jesus cannot show us anything until we quiet all our grumbling, so we can hear what the Spirit is saying. Wisdom calls us to NOT cast stones, but to love others by offering our forgiveness. Those who have been forgiven much by God are the hearts that are moved by the Spirit to quickly forgive all others. The enemy of all souls (Satan) is out to kill, destroy and steal our faith in God, and our joy in the Lord. We know that He (the Holy Spirit) who dwells within us is stronger than the prince of the air outside of us. Remain plugged into the Source of all Light, Love, Truth and Protection. We cannot deny the fact that we have all been lied to by people we trust, and we have all been pierced by arrows of hate, rejection, or malicious gossip. God warns us that in the last days, many will be deceived! We are commanded to pray for our enemies, and it is wisdom that calls us to continue to obey our Creator, the One true God who spoke and created the entire universe. Our God is quick to forgive and adopt all of us into His everlasting great plan. New Beginnings
Jason Corey Newell
Oct 12, 1971 – Apr 20, 2016 (Age 44)
Jason Newell will be remembered for his compassionate heart of gold. He attended Saint Mary’s High School and Lincoln High School in Stockton, California and played basketball and football. Jason loved his family and friends deeply. He was a gentle giant who lit up the room with his contagious smile and laughter. On his last day on earth he enjoyed a round of golf at Swenson Golf Course with his cousin David Bartlett and said “I’m so glad we are making memories together, memories we can remember” They shared a steak and lots of laughs. Jason died April 20, 2016 of a massive heart attack. He is survived by his mother Barbara Alley-Newell-Hoyle, sister Shelly Newell-Rivera, aunt Sue Newell-Green, uncle Ben Alley, aunt Mary Alley- Dinkel, cousin David Bartlett, step-dad Michael Hoyle, step grand-mother Marge Hoyle, and his only beloved daughter Marissa Giovannoni.