Good Memories

The past is behind us; and we wisely pause to remember and learn from it. Eternity is ahead of us; and we choose to prepare for the destiny of being in the Presence of God forever with those loved ones who have gone on before us. April 20, 2021 marked the 5 year anniversary of my son’s entrance into eternity. The normal roller coaster of emotions stopped when I chose His peace instead of grief.   There is a time for grief, and good reason to pause for memories. 6232040_oOur Lord keeps our tears in a jar as He grieves with us. To mourn Jason’s shortened days, is to remember his life, and honor him. Remembering our loved ones is a holy, healthy thing to do. “Those who sow in tears will reap with songs of joy” Psalm 126:5 —  I am assured that my son is forever in the holy presence of Jesus, the Creator of all things, the One who opened His mouth and spoke the universe into being. The pain of never hugging my son on this earth, ever again…returns unexpectedly,  even years after his shocking sudden death.  Extreme emotions yet emerge when I hear the lyrics of songs that we sang together. On this 5th anniversary of Jay’s reunion with our Father, it is in Jason’s honor that I lodge some great memories. Music was always a part of our jointly shared joys in this life.  Jason loved to groove to Motown tunes and he displayed his soul on the dance floor.  He made me laugh until I snarkled!  We took many country drives together, windows down with our 6232403_oplaylists loudly blasting.  Each year Jason made a point of being in contact, and on many Mother’s day and Father’s day adventures, we took long road trips together to camp, attend a circus, to enjoy a BBQ on the coast, or just go out to Pirates’ Lair off HWY 12.  I can hear Jason say to me “no worries Momma, it’s all good!” Father’s day 2013 was the best Jason ever had.  We rented a cabin at Tower Park in Lodi on the river and Jason was the Captain of the boat that day!  His dog Bella was our mascot and his aunt Sue and cousin David joined us for that glorious weekend. Jason underlined this scripture in his Bible which I treasure. “My heart leaps for joy and I will give thanks to Him in song.” Psalm 28:7 – God asked “To whom will you compare me? Or who is my equal?” says the Holy One.” Isaiah 40:25   “He brought His people out with JOY, His chosen ones with singing.” Psalm 105:43 ESV – Jesus loved to worship at his church “Lifesong” in Stockton, California! When Jason was thirteen I took him to his first concert. It was to hear Kenny Loggins at the AG Spanos Center and the most recent was an outdoor performance, in the rain, with Katie and Diana in the Bay area.  Another

vivid memory includes busting a gut laughing while Snipe fishing at Lake Alpine shortly before Jay’s dad died.  My son never lost his child-like wonder or the absolute joy of welcoming a new job, or a new friend into his life’s shortened experience.  At Jay’s Jason 1979memorial,  several of his friends stood up to share memories. At the luncheon afterwards one tall man came to tell me that Jason was the glue, the guy who brought two rivalry schools together.  Tom Simmons shared that in the last few months of his life, Jason’s thirst for the Word of God grew.  He shared Jason’s joy in reading the psalms each morning.   As his mother  I am comforted in knowing — with full assurance that Jason accepted “God’s way is right for me.”  There was a lifelong spiritual battle going on for Jason’s soul and I Praise God that in the end, our Lord got the victory and won! “Precious in the sight of the Lord is the death of His faithful ones.” Psalm 116:15 – No matter how short or long of a time it takes, grief is important to share.  Raw and unfiltered feelings need to come out. If I pushed my feelings down, they would suffocate my soul and I would be subject to lengthy bouts of depression. Without my faith in Jesus I would be inconsolable.  I believe Jason 2011 on the Deltamy Lord gave me strength to write about grief, and He reminded me that it is holy to remember. Ecclesiastes describes all kinds of seasons and there is a time for tears, and a time for laughter.  “In his heart a man plans his course, but the Lord determines his steps.”  Proverbs 16:9 – Jason was at peace in his sweet soul before Jesus escorted him home.  “But our citizenship is in heaven. And we eagerly await a Savior from there, the Lord Jesus Christ.” Philippians 3:20  Jason Corey Newell,  Yo Momma, Barbara Sue loves you and today I am loving the memories of our last date in Stockton for mother’s day August 2015 – It was 108 degrees, we had no air conditioning and you wore that wet rag around your neck, smiling, never complaining! You picked me up from the airport in Sacramento, we stayed at the Best Western in Galt and then we took a drive along the river and had lunch at Al Da Waps in the old town of Locke. You wanted to take me to Micke Grove Zoo, and it was so hot that even the animals hid in the shade and we laughed!  It was like God impressed upon you to make more memories with yo Momma. More Scriptures underlined by Jason in his bible: “Through whom we have gained access by faith into this grace in which we now stand.  And we rejoice in the HOPE of the glory of God.”  I praise God for every heart that attended his homecoming service at Horizon church in Stockton. Jason saw his huge collection of friends and family remembering him well. Revelation opens the scriptures.”Angels ushered Jason’s soul to heaven.” Luke 16:22 “Jason immediately entered God’s Presence.” 2 Corin 5:6-8 “Jason participates in magnificent worship with angels.” Revelation 4:5  “Jason is surrounded by a great cloud of witnesses'” Hebrews 12:1


Mothers day 2014

Not only so, but we also rejoice in our sufferings because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope.  “You will be hated by everyone because of Me, but the one who stands firm to the end will be saved.” A memory from my son telling me “On Momma, just enjoy LIFE and disregard all those who HATE and find that forgiveness is impossible” Jason Cory Newell


“Then you will understand what is right, just, and fair, and you will find the right way to go. For wisdom will enter your heart, and knowledge will fill you with joy. Wise choices will watch over you. Understanding will keep you safe.” Proverbs 2:9 NLT — Tower Park  in Lodi, California for Fathers Day with Aunt Sue June 2013


Just hanging with the dogs! August 15, 2015 Jason and I spent our last day together in Acampo, CA. 

November 17, 2012 at my wedding Quail Lakes Baptist Church, Stockton, CALIF

Jason Corey Newell Stockton, California

Oct 12, 1971 – Apr 20, 2016 (Age 44) Jason Newell will be remembered for his compassionate heart of gold.

Matthew 5:37-48 “All you need to say is simply ‘Yes’ or ‘No’; anything beyond this comes from the evil one. “You have heard that it was said, ‘Eye for eye, and tooth for tooth.’ But I tell you, do not resist an evil person. If anyone slaps you on the right cheek, turn to them the other cheek also.. and if anyone forces you to go one mile, go with them two miles. Give to the one who asks you…“You have heard that it was said, ‘Love your neighbor and hate your enemy.’ But I tell you, love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you, that you may be children of your Father in heaven. He causes His sun to rise on the evil and the good…If you love those who love you, what reward will you get? Are not even the tax collectors doing that? And if you greet only your own people, what are you doing more than others? Do not even pagans do that? Be perfect, therefore, as your heavenly Father is perfect.” AMEN ❤️

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