A Palm Sunday Struggle

PalmTree1On Palm Sunday I got a new pair of lenses that allowed me a glimpse of God.  Can I respond to God with a yes, YES Lord, use me today? “Lord, make me an instrument of Your peace. Where there is hatred, let me sow love; where there is injury, pardon; where there is doubt, faith; where there is despair, hope; where there is darkness, light; and where there is sadness, joy!” St Francis of Assisi – Spending time pondering the enormity and faithfulness of God, I am humbled by His promises.  Staring out into my garden, I can see the bloom, but not the seed or the process of it’s growth.  The earth, the water, the oxygen, the sun all components created by God for His high purpose; my enjoyment, my healing – His pleasure. The promise in Matthew 28:18 reminds me that all power in heaven and earth has been given unto Jesus, who shall remain “in me” as the Holy Spirit, until the end of the age.  WOW! “I am with you always”  The supernatural Spirit of God gives me personal insights during times of stillness, study and situations.  Today, the Holy Spirit, my internal Counselor, Healer,
17861450_1588900434461142_7040649152924589103_nComforter worked a life lesson into my broken heart.  “Be still and know that I am God, the Light of the world, your Father and I have great plans for you”  This promise set me free to feel my emotions, but cling to the Light of the world.  I am accepted in Christ by His blood.  I am the object of His affection.  I am so precious to Him that He gathers my tears in a bottle. The life I now live is a direct response of gratitude of His continuing grace and mercy.  While I was sinning, Jesus went to the cross to die for me. This truth soaked into my soul and gave me the confidence to stop worrying about my son Jason, who is in heaven with the risen Christ!  Everyone was given emotions by God to feel. We feel joy, regret, uncertainty and at times….insecurity.  Okay, today courageously and authentically my sadness drained down my face.  I chose to not attend church but remain at home alone with my Savior. His joy deposited “in me” compels me to ride this out, and write this out, to glorify the risen Christ in me.  My identity, my future rests in Christ rather 30080055361_a5e74e04d2_zthan the opinions of those who may wander where I am today.  I understand and thank God that my participation, performance, absence, or my appearance…that these things will never change His love. God loves me now, as imperfect as I am and nothing I do will ever diminish the love of God.  Most certainly, all blessings flow from God because of my obedience, however, I can also expect a resulting discipline from my Holy, forgiving, compassionate Father in my disobedience. “Oh, the depth of the riches of the wisdom and knowledge of God! How unsearchable His judgments, and His paths beyond tracing out! “Who has known the mind of the Lord? Or who has been His counselor?  Who has ever given to God, that God should repay him? For from Him and through Him and to Him are all things.  To Him be the glory forever! Amen” Romans 11:33-36 – Resting peacefully in His hand on this Holy Palm Sunday.

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